Bored Till Death

Death is a beautiful woman
drenched in blue velvet
while smoking green
in the afternoon.

Death loves black cats
bare skin and constant
colorful melodies and
tunes .

Her red lipstick on the wall
Sweet traces of sweat and tears
Untouched sand and seashores
Red blood moon and a call.

Death is a tight palm tree skirt
And a vintage scarf over her neck
loud screams and several whispers
through the long morning hours.

Death is long lonely summer nights
powdery soft ivory kisses
infinite space within four walls
playful sea lions in the air.

Death is my boredom filling
my empty room and bed
writing on the wall:
”bored till death”
I might as well die

Death is not being
there together.

Copyright 2014

All rights reserved, Asmaa Lotfy

Sex and Hypocrisy ( Part 2 )

Facts

Let’s get some things straight first before getting any further with this subject.

1) I believe that sex has nothing to do with religion. If religion is supposed to be spiritual and enormously heavenly, then I don’t think god’s religion will be very trivial to include sex in 60% or more of its content. If that’s the case, then I completely disagree. Sex is included in one’s freedom. It is your ultimate choice to have sex or not have sex, but don’t blame it on religion.

2) Women get horny too. Get over it ! We aren’t sluts. If being horny is slutty, then men are sluts too. (Just saying !! )
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3) There is nothing called ‘’loosing one’s virginity’’. What do you exactly mean by ‘’loosing’’ ??? What have I lost ?? It should be more like ‘’gaining control over your body’’ because no one should frame me under the whole ‘’hymen/virgin’’ criteria !
Being a virgin or a non virgin is no one’s business. It’s my body and it shouldn’t be shamed by anyone.  What do they say ? ‘’only god will judge me ‘’ ?? There you go !

4) If you believe that one is free to have sex, but don’t believe in sexual freedom and orientation, then you’re simply another narrow minded hypocrite. If you think that gay and lesbian people are disgusting then you’re an ass. And that’s that ! Sorry the world isn’t up to your double ass standards ! I won’t argue with you politely because your thoughts are already offensive.

5) Most Egyptian men are not open minded/ pretend to be/ patriarchal minded. Which gets us to the main deal :

Hypocrisy

I consider the Egyptian society one hell of a hypocrite society, among all the other Arab societies for certain. They hail all the religious slogans, care for certain images, hold on to ignorant traditions, yet, they do all ‘’sinful’’ things in secrecy . If you open FB and check all the Egyptian sex pages, you’ll find that there are so many of them !! Beyond hundreds of pages with thousands and thousands of fans !! I checked a page of them, the wall of the page is basically full of horny obsessed men who ask for bitches ‘’sharameet’’ to have phone sex or meet in secret ‘’b sereya tama’’ and for girls who want to stay virgins, those men will have everything pleasurable with them ‘’bas htb2y bent bnoot brdo’’ but you’ll still be a virgin. Speak of absolute hypocrisy and disgusting attitude !  So you girls can do whatever you want, as long as he doesn’t put his dick in so you can get married and have a life based on lies with your naïve husband who may as well have been lying to you and used to do this shit with other girls before marriage.

Hello ?? The hell is this ! This is considered the norm btw !
Can I trust you ?

So after proving that our society is rotten with lies and fake images, and after totally believing and accepting one’s sexuality and one’s freedom to have sex or not have sex, what’s next ?? The main problem is that we live in this society, so basically we interact with such drained brain washed mentalities, and hence trusting someone and having the same understanding would be a difficult issue. Men here consider having sex with a woman like conquering an undiscovered land. And if they’re in a relationship and having sex regularly, when they think of getting married , the option of marrying their ‘’un virgin’’ girl friend is out of the question. They should marry a virgin instead because of all the shallow and narrow minded reasons you could ever imagine.
But the main reason would be that they fear women who can take control of their sexual needs. Those men are afraid of women and they need subordinate women to mold easily.
That’s why you’ll find lots of girls who believe in the freedom to have sexual activity, but are hesitant due to the unfortunate existence of those men in the society. It would hurt emotionally to be dumped by a man simply because he ‘’nailed’’ me. The stupidest thing on Earth, yet the most heartbreaking.

To Be Continued ….

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Sex and Hypocrisy (Part 1)

If you’re reading this now, then you probably have been drawn to the title and thought I’d be writing sexual stuff that would be a turn on. Sorry to disappoint you, but I’m not horny right now and this post isn’t sexual, however it will certainly tackle sex in the Egyptian society. So feel free to stop reading or simply check this out without being a pre judgmental asshole.
     Hypocrisy in the Egyptian Society
You got all those magnificent looking pages on FB calling for respecting women and their freedom to dress what they want, have their own choices in life and move forward with their careers, but I’ve never encountered one of those pages talk about women’s sexuality in the Egyptian society. I always get the feeling that they try their best to avoid this subject as it has religious overtones as well. So basically my freedom ends when religion begins. This is what I call hypocrisy. Therefor, all those intentions to free women and protect them is simply a lost cause because they ignore a highly important part of a woman’s identity which is her sexuality.
Most of Egyptian men as well as women would feel shocked or they would have a hard time absorbing the thought that women and girls in general do feel sexual excitement and have sexual needs ! They would condemn such feelings by saying that it’s ”sharmata” which is being ”slutty”.

If you think my thoughts so far are blasphemy, I advice you to stop reading now.

So those women are called ”sluts” because they express or have natural feelings and needs that they were born with (god created them along with human beings) .

Religion forbids having sex before marriage:

I won’t argue a lot in this particular point, but I’ll question it. How can god forbid something that he created in humans when they were born ? Doesn’t waiting to get married to have sex is considered a chaotic decision and a life wrecker for many people ? How can you get married to someone and have a sexual life with them without getting used to them first ? What if you don’t feel sexually comfortable with the person ? Will you spend the rest of your life with him/her due to marriage ?
What if I never get married ?? Will I stay a virgin without having sex till I die ?? Will god reward me in the after life just like he will reward men ?? Or will be the reward for those men ??
Why is heaven full of sex ?? Why can’t Earth be full of sex and heaven be a spiritual non sexual place where souls simply exist without any sexual stuff ???
Why is it considered disgraceful and sinful that I ask these questions and think about everything in general ?? I was born with a brain wasn’t I ???

…… To Be Continued

N.B : I welcome all non judgmental non abusive commentsImage